As I sit here this morning I am aware of the sadness, depression, and grief many families are facing. Some of it may have been caused by the wild fires that have destroyed many places in the United States. Many may have lost a loved one, or a loved one is sick.
So my question is this: How do we find joy during a journey we didn’t choose? One of being heartbroken?
Having a belief system you can find strength in is the way I have found hope for the future, even though I am a sinner who doesn’t deserve forgiveness, I trust the words of Jesus in the New Testament of the Bible. The promises there assure me that not only have I been forgiven, but God will give me the strength, determination, and will power to let go of my past and pain. I also have to say the Serenity Prayer on a daily basis.
THE SERENITY PRAYER: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. -copied-
Many times I believed I could love someone enough to help them change their lives, to make better choices, to be responsible, and what I wanted most of all was for them to love me in return. It has taken me years to realize I don’t have that power. Recently, I was faced with my daughter being diagnosed with MS. She spent five weeks in the University of Alabama Hospital. We were told to prepare to have 24/7 around the clock care, as her MRI didn’t’ look like she would ever walk again.
My daughter had just received a well check up and passed it at her job. I can’t even begin to explain what it was like to be looking at someone who was healthy one day, and had completely lost so many regular body functions that we all take for granted each day. There was no way I could show the emotions I was feeling inside. I didn’t want my daughter to know my world changed greatly that day. I never wanted her to see my tears. Believe me, I shed many tears in private. My family and friends prayed and asked their friends and churches to pray, also.
I hesitate to question why our prayers were answered, because I know many people have to live with their diagnosis, and God loves them just as he loves my daughter. So I will accept this blessing, this miracle, because even the doctors say it is a miracle that she is walking! She’s going to Spain Rehab and getting stronger everyday.
Now I am a senior citizen, and I can tell you that life is constantly bringing challenges that we must face, and how we choose to wake up each day and choose to survive will make us or break us either emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Many mornings I had to pray my way out of bed. The comfortable pillow and my soft warm comforter seemed to be telling me, ‘Just lie here and stay cozy.’ I admit I am not as strong in my faith as I would like to be and feel sometimes I am on a roller coaster. This miracle, this blessing, of seeing my daughter walk has taught me to embrace life again. I’m sharing a poem I wrote years ago that I feel is relevant and I hope will touch you, too.
BIRDS IN THE STORM
Looking out my kitchen window
the Cardinals, and Sparrows
fed from the
And I wondered where
the birds found shelter as
limbs were blowing.
To my surprise, as if the bad
weather wasn’t approaching,
even as the storm brought
rain, thunder, and lightening,
they didn’t budge.
Neither did I, from the window.
I’d prayed for a sign, one
to bring comfort and joy.
Now I had an answer, I am
much like the
birds. With each season of
life, the birds are beautiful to watch
as they gather to feed, sing, and
fly through each season.
The birds in the storm, brought
promise to my soul, as we, too,
often stand strong in the rain.
Finding beauty again
with the light of the sun.
Now if you are blessed by this story, that will bring a smile to my face.
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