This is an announcement I am making to my friends that I hope will understand where I am coming from. Please read it and then pray for my family. Two weeks ago I started going to AL-ANON meetings due to the fact I have a family member who is fighting addiction to drugs. There have been several arrest because of stealing, being caught with drugs, and some other charges. She is now in rehab and until I went to a meeting there I did not understand how addiction turns into a disease. I am writing this because if I didn't understand it, then you may not either.
What happens when a person uses drugs a few times is that the dopamine (a compound present in the body as a neurotransmitter and a precursor of other substances including epinephrine}. in the brain (we only have so much naturally a day) but the drug makes the happy feeling and the dopamine is being fed and begins to love the feeling and the need to take more drugs. Then what happens is that part of your brain is chemically changed and the part that wants to be happy is out of control. It is like a monster begging and demanding more of the drugs that has made you so happy. It interferes with all decisions and choices and this never goes away as the brain has CHANGED!
I have never had any kind of addiction and I could not understand why it was so hard for someone to just STOP. I've always thought it should be easy. NOW I realize why the addict has problems leaving their old friends because they are addicts, or recovering addicts, or in jail, or have just got out of jail or are in prison.
Now I'm taking care of an 11 month old little girl. I love my grandchildren with all my heart and that will never stop. I am learning that I can't change them. I don't have that power and I have to learn to trust God.
I also have to learn that when the addict and I get emotionally charged about something going on between us, it really hurts me, but it REALLY effects the addict and pushes her to want to use to release the pain.
This is the hardest post I have ever shared and I am asking all of you for prayers for my family.